I like walking in the rain, because no one knows I am crying in remembrance of my beloved lover waiting for me at the Gate of Heaven, InshaAllah...........................................................................................................................
Allah, if I worship You for fear of Hell, burn me in Hell, And if I worship You in hope of Paradise, Exclude me from Paradise. But if I worship You for Your Own sake, Grudge me not Your everlasting Beauty.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Forlorn, longing for my late Lover
Look at the white cloud dancing on the blue sky, fading
away in second, changing to the black cloud , shaping to hurricane in my
Look at heavy rains, pouring the water, shedding our
lovely dry soil, biasing the sun light thru particles, create a lovely
rainbows……awakening the grains germinate to be thousands of sprouts in my
Look at the sunset, slowly fading away and I will comes
at a time when the night moon in my forlorn
The wind blows touching the leaves touch, dancing merrily
accompanied moon ...
May God love you, God commanded the entire life to love
you more and treat you with more gentle, spoiled with good fortune, and you
will be happy with the love of a beautiful and faithful.
Two beautiful ladies
Concentrated in the foundations of love and power of
mind, while there is patience and sincerity for my soul mate who keep telling
me to lesson learn from life and my little girl who always give me a kiss before leaving home.
Learning to obey still feels hard, understanding to learn
the burden and Learning to be Patience
Learning to always faithful even sometimes seduced by
worldly, learning to be patience.
Learning to relax although often restless and learning to
Believe Even though it's hard to.
Learning to accept what we have, learning to appreciate
what we had.. with faith to God almighty
I realized now, thing called love in this time and age
even if based on personality and cannot differentiate between love and lust.
Love and lust have existed since mankind existed and
finding true love is a complicated task, stick with lust and let love take it's
I proved that the true love have been growing between us after
married when the tree of love is well watered with seeds
I see a bright moon rose west, breaking through my bedroom to
shine, appeared on curtain, sighed unceasingly for my lonely marooned.
I see the green mountains and clear rivers in the evening moonlight setting in.
I see grass and
bushes wildly within wild flowers
showing the rainy season come
I feel tear drops reminding me of my parted lover’s
plight and change my hair to grey
The immortal lover had flown away, leaving the lover
oblivion, which remains alone from thousands of miles away,
I see white clouds move sluggishly in the sky across the expanse of the sky, no
tear drops can be seen except bunches of wild flowers with everlasting fragrant
I see the haze over the waters ditch in front of our
house, render a yearning heart consoled when we sit in veranda
But last year and this year, since my loves were gone,
with tears soaking my cheek, I’m forlorn.... i were not there at that time.
I know you have agreed to my decision for continuing the rest of my life, till my time comes...... i know it, my love. Time for praying my dear.